IN A MERE EXISTANCE, I AM STUCK. lINGERING SOMEWHERE BETWEEN LIFE AND DEATH, BUT IT FEELS LIKE HELL. MY LIFE FEELS THOUGH IT HAS BEEN STRIPPED LITTLE BY LITTLE. I FEEL SO DISTANT FROM ALL AROUND ME, AND I CAN'T SNAP OUT OF IT. BEFORE I CAN GRASP MY THOUGHTS, THEY'RE GONE. SUICIDE IS NOT AN OPTION FOR ME, BUT I CAN FULLY UNDERSTAND WHY PEOPLE TAKE THEIR OWN LIVES. MY SON'S ARE THE REASON THAT I DON'T GIVE UP. I CAN'T GIVE UP. I JUST WANT MY FUCKING LIFE BACK.